Hol(y)day

So its finally over, my 10th grade i mean, I'm so happy that i get the class that i want so I'm on the right track right now, my work wasn't useless after all. It means i don't have to move.
Hope maketh not ashamed.
I am so blessed, loved and i just realized that i was so luck to have these all that God has given to me.

Im officially on my holiday, i just got back from the Thousand Islands, Kepulauan Pramuka, to be exact. It amazed me to know that there's still that kind of beauty in this cruel-busy-town.

I went to snorkeling, well I'm an amateur so here comes a lot of scars because of sharp corals and reefs and the other sea stuffs, and (un)lucky me, my knee touched a fire coral, well yea the thing that i know nothing about, it leaves a scar between itchy, burn and hurts, and it leaves mark like forever, i still hope it doesn't because it doesn't look good at all.
And my skin got burned, screw people who got tanned-skin and looks good because I'm not.

 It feels like argh. 

 I feel stupid, and yea its my other knee.

BUT PEOPLE, I REGRET NOTHING. It was so amazing, this trip makes me love the sea even more, there's no words to describe how amazing it feels to be in the middle of nowhere in the sea, all you can see is just water, blue, and all you can feel is just the water itself, the cold and the warmness from the sun. God is so great that He made these kind of things.

A word to describe an ocean; it is Hypnotizing.

That was a sweet escape. All i can do was saying thank you for thousand times but it doesn't feel enough. But still, I Thank You.

Cruel World

If you look further, if you try to feel more further and think even more further about the world, as a whole, its terrifying yet so beautiful, isn't it?
The Great Mother-Nature, The Earth, The World,
its beautiful like a 'lady' which means, its beautiful with all of its shapes, it embraces you with its elegance, softness, and even with all of the mysteries and the untold secrets that people would never know and the things that better be left unknown and untold, it makes people wondering in their whole life, you can say that it is unsolved, nobody knows or so sure about this thing, and you just love it with all of those confusing things.

And its all up to you that you want to consider it as a thing and try to love it or you just want to kinda put it there and not giving a damn about it, it wouldn't care at all, unless you can't see the beautifulness that it shows to people that give a damn about it.

IT IS CRUEL.
But if you try to find the reason why, here is the thing,
its just want people to live in justice, so it is spinning, sometimes you are up and in other times you are down, its trying to get used to all of the pressure

Some say that life is unfair, but it is not the life that is unfair, this cruel world is.
But you just gotta learn to accept that things not always gonna be the way you wanted them to be.
And in that case, you will have things fixing itself by the time goes on.
Its not your life that wrong, but its just you that can't accept things and try the thing you don't accept.

"The best thing that happen to a human being can happen if you just lower your expectation"

And thinking about the thing that live in this cruel world, human. I can tell you that human are the most selfish species on this world.
They just think about themselves, 'how and more how' about them, not how the other were.

-----

And talk about the cruel world, you tell me.
I swear its trying to kill me or get me down or something, seriously, it is too much for a week.
My dream, well its been 10 years, I've been keeping this thing for a damn 10 years and this world is trying to tell me to stop.
You can say that its my fault, well this country considering things with a score, repeat, score and not skill, they don't care if you're a goddamn smartass and someday your family is dying so you can't do the test good enough, you get a bad score then you will be considered as stupid.
They just giving attention to the prestige, the money they got, they just want to accept the good, and how the hell this country going to be great if they don't want to accept the not so good students?
Well good student came from a good education, am i right?

Well, ya, the point is, if i want to chase my dream, i have to move out from this town. That's the end of the story.