First thing first, I missed this blog so much.
So i've passed my 11th grade and here we are on our last year on senior high school. This is happening guys, we're gonna get into college in a year.
It sounds crazy to me.
Im so blessed to have all of these things, i mean i can get through things i didn't know i could, 11th grade was crazy as fudge, and it was the fastest period i must say, or it is just me. But it is all over and done with, a new chapter of my life is about to start and for the very first time in my life I'm scared, i just don't know how to start and how to survive this time. But i still have one thing that i believe will keep me through, i have my faith to God. Every single thing is gonna be just fine.
Im just gonna get my courage up and start this chapter. Fingers-crossed.
But i can't lie to myself, that aimless would be the right word to describe me right now. I don't know which path i should take, and what is the right thing to do. It is hard for me because I'm not that kind of people that just like to let it flow and just following the fate as it is, i prefer to be prepared and have a strategy when I'm facing it, and i know that it would be the death of me if i keep doing this because a great journey is not the prepared one.
This too shall past. I will get back to my feet, I'm getting there.
Im planning so much thing for this blog but none of it is happening. I just hope that myself can be upgraded in 2015, I'm hoping for the new me, the better behave, strong and a lot better.
Nothing shall be impossible, but for now I'm on the summer-break, well there's no summer here in Indonesia, it is just a month school-break.
This holiday was started not really well because i got sick and have to stay at the hospital for like 3 days, and my plans were some kind of ruined, but it is okay, I'm all healthy now anyway.
The fact that it is already 2nd of July is creeping me out. Time is flying too fast that I'm feeling like i couldn't catch with it.
But i'm still grateful for every little thing in my life that i can get through a lot of things this past 2 years, I'm growing up, I'm going to be 17th this year, I'm on my senior year now, and in less than a week I'm gonna have my coronation day in Church to be one of the servant in my Church, I'm grateful for the chance God has given to me.
Godspeed xx,
Nicole
