Bad-day

For God Sake,
"Bimbel I : Terlambat. Dimarahin-disindir. Gaada temen gitu. Ngga semangat. Suramness lvl: 0ver 9000."

Masih menyesali tindakan sekolah yang ngasih kelompok bimbel kayak gini. Kalian kan tidak tahu rasanya, terimakasih banyak loh ya hahahaha
Semua mata pelajaran lagi berlomba-lomba ngasih ulangan secepatnya, berakhir dengan pulang bimbel diharuskan belajar untuk ulangan 4 mata pelajaran besok dan yak tugas mading yang jbjb ini.

Hari ini rasanya under-pressure sekali,kawan. Tapi sepertinya nanti ini yang akan paling diinget dari seninya SMP kelas 9, kelas ujian.

Stressed out. I was mad for a while, feelin like i don't know what the heck to do. And then when i was chillin on my twitter i found some tweet that's really good:

"Do not lose hope. When you're down to nothing, God is up to something"

God is up to something, things will work out.*cross my finger*

Wish me a bunch bunch of luck with Biology, History and Math and maybe Grammar too.
Sounds great, am i wrong?

Monsterday

besok sekolah. Bimbel. Tidak tahu lagi bimbel sama siapa, tidak ada yang kenal. Matematika kelas 9 benar-benar bikin stress.

Worst feeling ever.

Kenapa sekolah itu nggak berpikir untuk bikin suatu hal membosankan jadi sedikit menyenangkan, salah satunya bimbel kelasnya bisa milih gitu atau ga gimana gitu ditempatinnya yang bagus. Ini udah males makin males karna gaada yang bisa bikin semangat. Perbedaan satu orang teman dikelas itu besar sekali, i'll appreciate it.

Thank you so much, school. Seriously. Thank you for smashing me down, pressing me so freakin hard so i can feel this freakin stress:'D like seriously

I hate monday. I always do. Unless it's monday during a holiday.

Ada apasih dengan matematika? Kesebangunan lah apalah semuanya itu, gue tidak mengerti-_-

Maunya cepet-cepet Ujian Nasional semua selesai......

I just can't handle it.

Promises.

You know that moment when you feel so shitty, you think you're not worth to anybody, even yourself can't deal with yourself either.
I'm only a human, i made mistakes. A lot of mistakes.
And then i will ask God to forgive me, and you know My God is good all the time, He will forgives us.
I'm feeling okay again and then a moment after all of those things i make a mistakes again. Again and again.

I've made promises in my self that i will try to do my best, i won't do the same stupid  mistakes again, i think i will make it through, in that moment i'm feeling so grateful and i know that i have my Lord on my side. And i know that i want to live for God.
But it's not as easy as i see.
So i'm just thinking, why i'm not make some official promises? Well it's not officially official but i know that some people will read it and i know that i can prove it with you guys.

I promise to live my life with God on my side, i will try the best as i can.
I will try to not made the same mistakes again.
I will try to thank God for everything that he has done to me. Everyday.
I will try to deal with my own-self, which is the wrong or the right things.

You guys who read it, you're all the witness.

Cycles of life

Enjoy the roller coaster because that's life. 

Sometime you're going up in the sky and bam! you're going down and got that heart-mini-attack or i-almost-die feeling and then you go straight in the line, you take a breath and then lol you're okay again. When you can feel everything's okay aaand it's not. You're going up and down again, you got twisted.

I can't be a lot more agree, that's shortly part of our life. 

You have to go to school - sick of those things - holiday♥ - you don't want to go back to school - miss school. And then go back at one.

New School - can't fit in - you meet some new friends - love them and school - you don't want to let them go - graduate and yep you go back at one.

One of my teacher ever said that it's nothing to be worried about, and i got it. In less than a year we're all going to Senior High School, and just like the first time, new friends, teachers and situation. Survived. You will love it like you do in this place just right now.

But yeah sometimes it's just not easy to let go, to understand and to deal with it. We have to walk out of our comfort zone alone. But they said, that's the point, we need to walk out of our comfort zone to know how's life exactly, the way to know what we're going to face later.

Growing up is a trap, it's not as easy and as fun as we see. Hardly to say that's the cycle of life.

And hey I just got some theory that here i mean in Jakarta, you know it's too many people in here, i mean, here it is,

Successful person come back to their hometown for celebrated maybe christmas or something like that [maybe their hometown doesn't have too many job opportunities for their population] - and the person meet the family who doesn't have any jobs and doesn't have job opportunities - you know, the person will ask the family if he want to go find a job in Jakarta.

 It will be easy, the person said. Maybe the family will luckily found a job and can be success like the person, but what if the family can't find any job and what will happen next? 

Maybe he will getting married and have a lot of childrens, he doesn't have a job so he doing a criminal job for his kids. And Jakarta going to be a lot more unsafe and full with people. 

Gsh i'm so sorry, it's my opinion.

Just saying, just maybe.

No.

So Holiday it's about to end. This is the last day , and i'm all like :

 I'm not friggin ready for school. This is sucks.

Kay than we need to stop this sadly post.

So guys, finally, i've watched STEP UP 4! For God Sake, it was aaaaaawwwweeesome♥ Sean was so freakin hot in that movie! The Mob was so cool! oh my oh my thanks for lius and your friend, well i still don't know who you are, but thanks for buying me the ticket, wait for me and so on. 

Well, it's gonna be awkward if i watch that movie with my mom, rite?

And now i gotta go, guitar course, sigh

Fix you

"When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleepStuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face 

When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse? 

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you 

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth 

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you 

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you"
  

I prefer the boyce avenue's version, well just saying. Both of them i mean coldplay and boyce avenue, they're great.

August

Happy 19th to my dearest brother♥ And then my livia-ariel-sella-levin and more
Happy 66th independence day too Indonesia! Wishing this country could be a lot more better.
And Happy eid mubarak 1433H to anyone who celebrated :D
So many things in august, thanks anyway!

So last saturday i've watched ice age 4 and yeah i'm not surprised that it will be great either.
At first i have no plan to go to the cinema, it's saturday night and as a usual i am going to boanerges, and then it was like , lol the church is closed. So yeah ice age 4 it's good......
Darrrn i'm craving to watch 'step  up revolution'! Someone please buy me the ticket please
School it's getting closer, looool just die-_-

Just Saying

Do you ever thought just maybe if one of your words has made someone mad?

Or maybe you are the one?

Just sayin but can you please watch your mouth? Even though you are angry, have some classy things in your head and heart. Well we're all a human and we got really really mad sometimes and you got your heart broken and how about the other? how about the one that you get mad at? I'm really sure they have heart and can feel either.

 Do you know if their heart is broken? You don't know at all. 

Do you ever thought how's your words kept them awake at night and cries for many times? You have no idea.

Do you know how they used to loved and liked you at first and then now they're all hated on you?

Even if in the end everything's seems fine and seems like nothing the hell happenned, of course nobody will forgot about that, it will always be there, just in case you forgot how much it hurts.

So i'm pretty please, you're not always do the right thing, nobody's perfect until forever. Sometimes you need to learn even you have to take the lesson from the one who's younger than you. 

Love has 4 letters on it but so does Hate. It's pretty easy to change it. Respect me and i will respect you more. Respect each other. Please?

Marry your daughter - Brian Mcknight

Sir, I'm a bit nervous
About being here today
Still not real sure what I'm going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time.
See in this box is a ring for your oldest.
She's my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Cause very soon I'm hoping that I...

Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She's been here every step
Since the day that we met
(I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I've got most of my vows done so far
(So bring on the better or worse)
And 'til death do us part
There's no doubt in my mind
It's time
I'm ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart...

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I'd say I do

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

♥♥♥

I fell in love with this song since the first time

Another facts about me

"Kind of strong but needy.
Can't judge people at the first impression. I think it's kinda unfair.
I don't fucking care how's your look, as long as you can talk to me, being nice with me, you are little pieces of my world.
And most of all i'm imperfect but blessed:) u mad?"

Being fake in my face and i will remember you for the rest of my life. 

Do something imperfect and i believe you are human, nothing can be perfect unless it's a machine who has worked on it.

Being 'bossy' in front of me and i will know that i'm not gonna match with you.

Bullying people because you think you're better than them and i'm gonna hate you for the rest of my life even though i don't really know you.

Choosing your friends based on their appearances in front of me and i'm not gonna like you.

Being nice to me because of something then i will not count you as a friend.

Being rude to a girl in front of me and i knew you're not worth it for anygirl and you're not better than the foolest one.

Being nice with a girl in front of me and i knew that you're worth to keep as a friend or more.

Being nice with everypeople just because you like it and i'll try to know about you more.

Being close to God and i will remember you.

Playing accoustic guitar in front of me and i will remember your face.

Playing an music instrument in front of me and i will take a look at you 

Wearing a necklace and i will say that you're more attractive hehehe

Well i'm just bored. Nothing to do.

A beautiful mess - Jason Mraz

"You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again 

You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless 

Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses 

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions,dear
'Cause here we are, here we are 

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities 

There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging 

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades 

And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7] 

We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
Through timeless words, and priceless pictures  

We'll fly like birds, not of this earth  

And times they turn, and hearts disfigure

But that's no concern when we're wounded together 

And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts 

But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it."

I just love this song and i don't know why.Well, jason mraz is good to hear♥

                

How's life?

Hey what's up?
Just done my history homework. Gosh it seems like everything has changed to be more confusing than before, to be a lot more complicated than it used to be. Well, i know that i'm in a new whole level of life right  now, but anyone knows about adaptation? anyooone? how about take a break for a while?
And how bout y'all? How's life?

Well i know it's probably kinda rough, but it's great in a kind of ways, if you know what i mean.
i'm just trying to enjoy this whole year, last year in juniorhighschool:)

And welcome august bytheway,
a lot of my friends and families were born in this month. Happy happy birthday to you all♥

Actually, there's so much things in my head and then i do not even really sure what the hell i'm thinking about

And the last thing is, of course i'm hoping for the best things, but it would be so much better expecting for the worst things as well.

School

GUYS SERIOUSLY, i just realize that school really really has started.
You see, i don't even have enough time to write on my own blog. There's too much things to do, soo many many tasks that we have to do. Blame school if something bad happen with me, i'm too tired.

Mathematics sucks, grammar too.
Homeworks. Homeworks everyday.
HAPPINESSSSSSAD (":

So see you in this weekend, blog (?)