Counting Blessings

December 30th, and we're all already passed Christmas and welcoming 2015 in just one day.
2014 is a bless, so much things happened, a huge change, I'm nothing like me in maybe like a year ago.
This year has changed me a lot as a person.

And to welcoming this new year, I'm thinking about a review, so what really happened in 2014 actually:
- I had an extremely a lot of good times with my friends
- I got a special gift from God (connected with the 'Friday I'm in love' post)
- Started my catechism, this is a huge from me for some reason
- I had my first sea-trip with my friends to the 1000 islands, went to snorkeling for the very first time,!
- Got to the science class and didn't have to go from my hometown
- Finally got a chance to go to Dufan with my friends, i know this is not really that special tho but it's just something that memorable
- Grandpa and Granny's 50th wedding anniversary, this is too sweet
- Ate my first 'ragey' pizza, it amazed me, really
- Made a surprises and it actually went really well
- Loosetrum!!! so glad to be one of the committees
- JJF 2014, it was amazing, too bad i can't go next year.
- Many great movies and books that has released this year, it's a blessing
- Had my 16th birthday, it was a great day tho
- Had some works on the biology lab, and it was so exciting, we do the thing such as blood test, and cut a frog's tummy hehehe and many other things
- Decorating Christmas tree for my 16th Christmas
- This is one of the huge thing, I cut my hair short, yes people, short. But not that short, i still like it and actually i like this version of my hair a lot better
- Re-watch my fav telenovela Carita de Angel!
And many more, and many more and many more, it is so much more that i couldn't even remember

In a nutshell, 2014 was wonderful and amazingly amazing, IT IS A BLESS.

Tangled

3 words will define,

I Messed Up. 

Its just that i don't feel like I've done the thing i should have done and needless to say that it bothers me so much yet i don't have anything to stick my self up.

I've been trying to get as much motivation for myself, but it doesn't feel like any of those words and thoughts encourage me. Maybe I'm just afraid about this life, where its going to take me, or anything. And i don't want to take a pity on my self, its just so pathetic.

And thinking about 'motivation', 

I'm just gonna leave it here, "Don't depend on something that breath with air, has his heart beating and has every human thing. They will hurt you eventually"

and to search for motivation, even though I said that I've been trying to search for it, these days i've realized that to get my self to be encouraged it is only ourselves and i that can make it happen. And even if the motivation you get from someone, it takes yourself to be included for sure. you have to be open-minded to take the lessons and to keep it to your mind, and when you block it out of your mind no matter how good the advice is, it will not work out.

I learned so much just by reading a lot of books. It taught me how to keep my life together and how to think in new perspective. And this is the reason why i fell in love with words rather than actions, and i know, that it would be the death of me. Words are good, but it values nothing until it's proven.