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Hi there,

If you’re reading this then it must’ve been a month since the day you left.

Icon pernah bilang ya kan yos, pasti sedih ya kalo jadi yang ditinggal, kalo kita perginya bareng gitusih gapapa, nggak kerasa soalnya sama-sama sibuk.

Mikirnya sih Icon bakalan ke Manado, Yoshua di Batam. Ternyata Tuhan nggak bilang iya soal Icon jadi dokter, and that’s okay.

And I’m the one who stay,

and it’s true, it’s absolutely a bittersweet moment for me, for us maybe, but just let me be selfish this time because I’m gonna tell you how it feels to be me at that time, I am excited for you, for everything that you can do ,that I know you couldn’t when you’re still here, and oh dear, you should be too.

I believe there’s a lot of things you can achieve and learn in your new place, just do it, and I’ll be waiting for the stories about how you made it in the end of the day.

I’ve had just enough time with you,

2 years and 3 months of us, and you were one of my high-school sweethearts, my bestfriend and my eat-everything-partner that I’m so thankful about lol. We've had enough time, there's a lot of good memories of you in my mind.

June 30^th’16,

It was the day when you left.

I remember that day, it was 3 am in the morning and I was crying, not because of you, I swear to God I don’t even care about you (well at first), but because at that time my post-op friggin wisdom tooth was hurt as fudge. I had a fever and a very weeeiiirddd dream (katanya gigi gua dibawa kapal dan setiap kapalnya pergi gigi gua bakal sakit banget sumpah, it was horrible) because of the pain that night.

Well, thank God for obat anti sakit dari dokternya which btw makes me sleepy as hell. I made it that day.

I didn’t cry that day, or the day after, or even the day after that,

I never cry since the day you left this town. Not even once.

Susah sih emang awalnya, Yoshua yang awal-awal masih sibuk pindahan, beresin rumahnya, kesana kemari ngurusin kuliah, dan lain sebagainya, susah liat line, dan Icon gabut banget dirumah nggak bisa kemana-mana dan tanpa disadarin pun diawal-awal Icon sempet marah, entah yoshua sadar atau nggak, and I was a fool, I was being selfish, entah gua marah sama apa, nggak jelas, akhirnya pun gua sadar, udah saatnya buat kita ngejalanin hidup masing-masing, to fight for our dreams, harus ngebiasain diri karena itu belom apa-apa.

Nantinya Icon bakalan kuliah dari pagi sampe sore, Yoshua kerja dari pagi sampe sore dan malemnya kuliah, entah kapan kita bisa ngobrol gajelas lagi. Tapi gapapa, kalo emang Tuhan mau kita sama-sama pasti akan terus ada jalan.

Tanggal 1 Yoshua udah mulai kerjanya, udah kuliah juga. Semangat kamu maz-maz gembul, kita ngobrolnya minggu aja gapapa kok nyahahaha.

Hah anyway, lu balik gua udah jago nyuci yos, liat aja. Lu sukses gua juga sukses. Nanti ya 4 tahun lagi, yoshua S.E , Icon S.Kep terus sekolah dulu lagi setaun:’)

Tepati janji lu ya beliin playdoh nanti.

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This screenshot was taken when you said that they sell penguin-meat there in Batam and i ...... somehow, believed it.

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I missed you, I would say with all of my heart but my fat is bigger than my heart so, I missed you with all of my fat.

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I think I would cry if I ever see you again.

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Anw,

People asked,

“Are you okay?”

I am fine, I’m getting used to it.

I’m  just trying to get back to the life before him, which I barely even remember.

Well, anywaaay, we both have interesting journey to face in front of us, we’ll be just fine, aren’t we, Yos?