Let me just

There's so much things running in my head, am about to explode and give up.
And it's not me who has a lot of time to write but, i insist to have it, just not in the mood for giving a damn to math. Math exam tomorrow, and i haven't touched the books yet and it's almost midnight. Like there is gonna be the difference if i touch it or not.

I don't want to save those running thing in my head alone so here they are:
1. Why on earth math and physics are exist
2. How will i look for the next 2 years
3. Math and how sucks school is
4. Choir and christmas, i can't wait any longer, puhlease, or at least take me to friday, let us just skip thursday, or math, i don't care, but still i hate thursdays.
5. If only i can play keyboard or piano and have a good voice, life would be more fun
6. You guys can stay mad with me, whatever the problem is, you can just leave me and make fun of me, but you guys please do not ever ever ever yell at me, scream and use a not so great tune on me, am not gonna mad at you, i don't care, as long as you don't yell at my face, or well bye, even  the nicest people have limits dude. And I'm not the nicest people.
7. I think i can't go to school anymore, there's so much drama and mean people, always-mad person, oh well yea everything in school just pissed me off nicely.
8. Why am i a girl, i don't like them tbh
9. Math again, how can i survive, how to be a good math person that i know i am not and never will?
10. Can life be easier or something?
11. Im not good at anything i guess, i wish i was
12. Great books that i haven't done, i just don't have enough time and sleep
13. Maybe i would just give up, i don't know, i could just write books maybe, but i always wanted to be a doctor, seriously it is killing me, math sucks but they need it to be a doctor, or at least that's what to world know
14. Life would be perfect if you get through all of these hard times with the perfect guy, and growing old with him.
15. Things gonna be okay the way it used to be, right?
16 until 50. Math