Complementary, Compatible, Capsule

This might be one of the unpopular opinion about a relationship or a thing

but i think to be in a relationship or to find the right one is not about finding the same person with same personality or the same habits or a people whose think the way you think, i found it myself, is about to finding someone who's completely different with you, well not a completely, but it must be the other half of you, your another piece. And let's consider that we're all a heart or a love half-shaped, to be a perfect heart-shape you need your another piece, right?

And if you see and realize, it must be different from you, well this hard to say, you both basically just the same but somehow you both are different. Like a love-shape, if you two be put together you will be in a whole perfect heart-shape, just the way how it should be, but then again despite all of the differences if you two are put together in some kind of way, if you try, or its easier to say like you two hug each other, well then you both is just the same

like this pic that i made, lets just consider that

1. It is me and 

2. It is you, somehow we are different 

3. It is us

4. If we're being put together as one, we're both is just the same

And thar's how it should be. Imagine if the first pic is being put together with also the first, they won't make a beautiful heart shape like 1&2 did.

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Have you heard the saying about dreamers and realists?

"There are dreamers and there are realists in this world. You'd think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists but more often than not, the opposite is true.You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the sun. And the realists? Well, without the dreamers they might not ever get off the ground."

and i couldn't agree more. 

Its like you two are made together as one like a capsule but you have to be born in a separated place, and you need to find your another piece. In your way of journey to find it, you might find a piece or pieces that fit with you but then again its not yours, you need to find it again, the one that belongs to you, the one that made you feel like you're home and the one who will understand your silence words when you mad, do something that you couldn't do, and the best thing of it all he or she will be the one that need you the most either, you will be the one that could do something for them that no one could. Cause you two are basically one. 

To be a compatible one then you should just fit each other in some way, you both cover each other scars, lacks, needs and so on, and of course there will be a lot of fights, is one of the term and conditions i think, if you want a happy relationship without a fight then you will got nothing in the end because if you want to reach a happy ending and the right one, you have to fight for it.

Its like him or her is your fav pain , no matter how hurt it is, it is yours and no one could take it or feel it 

the way you do.

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Well I'm just a teenager and i knew nothing about love its just my thought. But all i know is love is a stupid, beautiful, painful and it demands to be felt just like what John Green said in one of his book. And it takes everything.
Hope that i will figure it out someday in the right way either

Heartbroken, and Lost

Well now I'm lost. Literally.
I don't know what i want anymore, i don't know what and who to hold and all i wanna do is just laying down and not to think for months.

all i know is being forced is sucks and i swear it will never brings you any good, so don't you ever try to do it with someone especially the one you loved. What is so good about being happy and being loved when the one who give you that feelings is sad and not doing it just because they want to but because they are being forced to do such things?

If it was meant to be, it will happen.

There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be like they said it would be.

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Hv you ever got your heart broke and it hurts so damn bad? Is it normal for human to feel this kind of pain? Bcs i don't know what should i do to bear the pain. Its like being punched right in your heart by someone you thought will never hurt you.
Despite the physically pain, it hurts you emotionally and never knew it could be worse than the physically-pain itself, and as always,
when i thought that it couldn't be any worse, its getting worse, i have no one visible to hold, and crying yourself to sleep is the worst feeling ever,
i miss my dad so much, i need him to walk in to my room and eat a bag of chocolate and say "you can't have it" but he will always ended up give them to me anyway.

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Sometimes, words is not even close to 'enough'.

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I've made a promise to myself, i will never force my kids to be something they don't when they have grew up. I will support them in every step they want to take.

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I will never knew where life will take and give me, but hard-times like the one I'm having right now is exhausting even tho i know it builds me. but i really am just tired, it seems like no one is on the same track with me and they just disagree with all the things I'm trying to say, the world seems to be beat me down to my lowest point


instead of telling them how much it hurts me, all i can do is nothing, its a lot way more easier to hurt myself than to telling them, they won't give a damn anyway. I need a distraction. i don't want to hurt people around me but its just like they keep telling me that all i do was just hurting them. What should i do then?

An Anti-bucket List

As I'm growing older, well not so much, I'm starting to think that sometimes I'm lost, not certainly lost but there's the time that I'm feeling like "uh oh what's going on? what am i doing?" or even worse "this is not what i want" and there's the time that i wanna do something else out of daily routine.

And I'm all like, nah.

So i decided to make an anti-bucket list; things that i hope i would never do before i die, and let's start from the small things:

1. Cut my hair like a boy, or shorter than my neck. What would i do without my hair?
2. Sell my books, no matter what happen and no matter how messy my room would be. They're like my soul. Don't you dare to think about it
3. Work on something i don't want to do
4. Letting people who i love so much down, this is always gonna be the biggest fear of my life
5. Hurt someone's heart, on purpose
6. Yelling at my child in public place
7. Regretting my decision and couldn't do anything about it
8. Being a strict-unopenedheart person or even worse parents
9. Leaving my 'home' that means my family, friends and God
10. Working with math or physics

Well now i know that making an anti-bucket list is a lot more harder than to make a bucket-list or a to do list, we all know what we want, exactly,
but none of us give attention to what we should not do or forget about
You guys should try to make one, try to give myself a limit, a good ones