Confusing things

Well i don't know how to be me anymore, anything seems like it doesn't right and fit anymore, everything feels like perfectly wrong in so many times.
I'm on my easter holiday and i must be happy, correct? actually i am not.
UAS is getting closer like omg seriously, i don't have much time and i don't know what to do.....
It is just that confusing.

So many wishes and things to do, maybe too many even me, i don't know how to start this whole shits. Always thinking about tommorow and nothing happened just like i did today.
I. Just. Do. Not. Know. How.

Another Imperfect Day

Well, happy sunday guys!
So lately i've been thinking about all the plans and what to do with my future. What should i do and stuffs, and for the last 2 weeks i'm kinda interested with German.  I've heard about the medical school and maybe it's way much cooler than i think, i kinda hope to get a scholarship to German.

So many dreams and wishes that i hope to be come true, and now i'm on my researching about medical school in German and i start to thinking about learn the languange, they don't use english in their daily life.
Universitas Indonesia is still my number one list, but if i could then why not take the opportunity

Imagine how proud i am to go to the medical school in German. It could be my motivation to be more serious from now on. I'm on my way to the real life and i really want to take this way so badly, study hard must be the key and pray everyday. God's way and God's plan, that's what gonna happen and I believe it must be much more worth it.

Well all of our dreams, i believe it must be worth to fight for. So all i wanna do is start to believing everything's happen for a reason and it's happen the way it should be, and surrender to my Lord. His way is so much more wonderful than i could ever think of.
All we need to do is, well keep on shining folks!

Resep Masakkan Bahan Dasar Ubi

It's something called 'chiffon cake ubi', besok harus masak disekolah dengan bahan dasar ubi atau singkong dan menemukan resep ini. Wish me luck! and maybe you can try to cook it either

And this post was copied from the internet, it wasn't mine.

Bahan I : 

100 gram ubi ungu, kukus dan haluskan

125 gram tepung terigu protein sedang

100 ml susu cair

75 gram gula pasir

50 gram minyak goreng

5 butir kuning telur

Sedikit garam

8 tetes pewarna makanan ungu


Bahan II :
75 gram gula pasir

6 butir putih telur

1/2 sdt baking soda

Cara Membuat :
1. Blender atau mixer ubi ungu yang telah dihaluskan dengan susu cair dan pewarna ungu. Tambahkan dengan minyak goreng. Tuang dalam wadah.

2. Maasukkan tepung terigu dan gula pasir sedikit-demi sedikit ke dalam adonan ubi ungu, aduk rata.

3. Kocok putih telur dan baking soda hingga setengah mengembang lalu tambahkan gula pasir pada bahan II hingga mengembang.

4. Tuang campuran bahan II yang telah mengembang ke dalam adonan I sedikit demi sedikit hingga tercampur rata.

5. Tuang adonan ke dalam cetakan chiffon dengan diameter 20 cm. Panggang selama 60 menit dengan suhu 180 derajat celcius.

6. Angkat kue yang telah matang lalu keluarkan dari cetakan. 

18th March

It was an awesome day! A thankyou is not even enough for my abnormallyfun classmates #ninesixpacks , you guys are rawking my third and last year. Thankyou for all the unforgetable moments we shared and which is i believe is coming. I can't thank you enough MarsudiriniJHS17. It mean so much to me to be one of them. And i'm so proud to say that i'm a marsudirinian.

So today we do some kind of a photoshoot for a yearbook. It was exhausting, i mean i can't even stand normally right now and i can't even thinking about school tomorrow. But it's all fun! meh but i'm not really sure about the individually photo, it was horrible, i'm the one who's horrible i mean.

Just got home maybe like an hour ago or two, thankyou Felmon who give me a ride and Agastya who is walking me home and embarassing me at the same time.

The sky was beautiful today just like the happiness i had, i really should thank God for this kind of a day. It's a rare thing.
Once again thankyou for this amazing day, Pals♥

Social Media (s)

Thank you for whoever you are who is reading this shit like my blog right now♥ 

You can follow me to at the other soc.med and just mention or something for a followback, such a great thing to meet new people and make friends.

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Facebook : http://www.facebook.com/nicole.claudia

Instagram : nicoleclfr

Blackberry pin : 283feddf

Active email : nicole.claudia@rocketmail.com

Thankyou

And for the other things, i used to write the same username ' nicoleclfr '.

Socmed become a really huge thing nowadays and it has too many kind of itself, and i mean what is the real point? The people were just the same

How deep is your love - Bee Gees lyrics

I know your eyes in the morning sun

I feel you touch me in the pouring rain

And the moment that you wander far from me

I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze

Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave

And it's me you need to show

Chorus:

How deep is your love

I really need to learn

Cause were living in a world of fools

Breaking us down

When they all should let us be

We belong to you and me

I believe in you

You know the door to my very soul

Youre the light in my deepest darkest hour

Youre my saviour when I fall

And you may not think

I care for you

When you know down inside

That I really do

And it's me you need to show

Commitments

I don't know what is it but suddenly i thought something really nice for my life, well maybe.
I would like to make some commitment for my own life, happiness, and my own good.
They said i'm a headstrong, a headstrong scorpion just like the usual typical, if i want to make it then it must be.

I think it is the time to live the better life, i'm going to be 15th this year and 16th the next year, that trust me, it won't take a long time. Time's flying, and maybe too fast.

1. I want to be more healthier, eat well and sleep well
2. Take care of my own body, every single part of it.
3. Starting a new good habit just like nightprayer, and pls read the Holybible,con
4. Stop cursing. I know me can do it.

Maybe all those things sounds easy, well not for everybody i guess. From all those points, none of them seems easy to me, as a normal teenager i don't eat and sleep well and i don't always take care of my body.
And for the the third and fourth, well i think it's a good thing to do and start just like from right now.
I know i can be better than this.
I'll take a screenshot of all the points and use it for 'a reminder' for me every morning and everytime i check my phone.
I'm just trying to be a better person. Wishmeaverybestofluck!
Still on my mid-term anyway

Lost - Michael Buble lyrics

I can't believe it's over

I watched the whole thing fall

And I never saw the writing that was on the wall

If I'd only knew

The days were slipping past

That the good things never last

That you were crying

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain

And the rain turned into tears upon your face

I hardly recognized the girl you are today

And, God, I hope it's not too late

It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone

I'm always there with you

And we'll get lost together

'Til the light comes pouring through

'Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When your world's crashing down

And you can't bear the thought

I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy

It can tear your soul apart

It can make you feel like you've gone crazy

But you're not

Things have seemed to change

There's one thing that's still the same

In my heart you have remained

And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone

And I am there with you

And we'll get lost together

'Til the light comes pouring through

'Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When the world's crashing down

And you can not bear the cross

I said, baby, you're not lost

I'm in love with this song, i love michael buble but i don't know this song and i fell in love with this song since the day mikha angelo sang it on his audition for the XFI.

Skewl

Another mid-test yeaaaa, who's happy? not me obviously.
It's just getting closer i mean, the seniorhighschool thing, i have to restart all the things. At some point i can't wait to start it and at the other point, i want to stay, this is my comfort zone but i just can't.

Well grow up is a damn trap.

I need a new novels right now, somethin' nice.
And i need to stop playing games just right now but i don't want to study. The sims looks so much better.
So yep another wish me luck from me. Meh. Bye now.

Closing Ceremony

You guys know the event called Java Jazz Festival, right?

So in the end of the damn practical exam, me and my bro and mom went to the JJF2013, which held on 3 March. Last day of the JJF. It was so amazing, too much awesomeness i must say. It's my first JJF and seriously it was amazing.

Let's just say it was the closing ceremony for my practical exam and then now i have to back to school and learn more shitsubject.

Maybe just talk about the festival, for me or a people who enjoy music so much, this event was a good one, after the festival i'm all like, omg i want to learn saxophone so bad, for god saaaake! and meh, i know i can't be that serious, just like when the guitar thing start, it's like duh, done.

You guys can try it next year, search about the ticket long time before the event. You will get a really good price seriously, people have to buy the ticket around 500k-idr and i got around 100k-idr*so much win*

Unluckly, i can't watch the special show from Basia or Craig David.

Talk about concerts, seriously if i were a billionaire, i want to watch all the concerts that i want to. And lately i've heard about the red tour, tayswift omg. If that issue's true, i have to buy the ticket, no matter whaaaaat.

Even if i got the festival, i think it could be more fun, to watch the show and have fun with strangers.