Dear people

People said that a girl is the one is taking control, which is wrong bcs in fact, we're all would be touched if someone is paying attention on us and took care of us. I guess, girls made to be loved.

And not all of us is the same, in fact some of us, well most of us, hate each other, lol the irony.
Basically we're all human, and most of us can't stand with the fact that some people is better than us. Efffh, that's sounds bad.

Maybe there's the truth that most of girls is a goddamn selfish, perhaps it's true and all that we need is someone who can made us feel like there's no one is better than us and we're the one and only. And it's true that sometime is hard to understand us, there's an absolute law that girl can't always tell people what is it and how their feelings, we don't want to be that attention seekers, unfortunately, there's always people like that, i prefer to call them cheap. srry.

And not all the girls love to do the girls things like shopping, make up, and stuffs. We're all have our own unique side that showed who is the real us.
And not all the girls who love to do girls things is a bitch, and not all the girls who is different is nice.
But the most important is our personalities, you have to get to know us first than judge.
And people, keep it on your heart that something nice and expensive is worth to wait and chase, and something cheap always get attentions.

I love to paying attention on how the other girls dressed up. Based on how i loved to watch a girls' looks, an idea came out that is not about what is the brand of the outfits that we wore, or what is the kind of the dress, is about the girl who wore it and is all about how the girl wear the outfits and the way she showing her personalities to other people, is all about how is the image that shown.

Some people get mad to a girl that wore something they said too short and shits. And with all of my heart, i disagreed. Especially for all the young girls, then when is the right time to wear that kind of dress and outfits if people keep on saying that is not appropriate to the public?

A girl dressed up for her ownself, note that.

And for all the girls, it's all depends on how you wear it and the image that shown. So the true fashion is your own invention, the other is just somebody's brand.
And the best make up is that smile you had, don't let anyone ruined your happiness and took your beautiful smile. Girls are born with a perfect beauty. And remember that you never fully dressed without a beautiful smile, and oh, that sparkling eyes full with happiness:)
And people, we're all made and born to be loved, took care of, and needy, thankyou if you already get it and done some of that thing, you deserve our love♥

Sleepover, prom and stuffs

I had a great weekend! Thanks to my girls for an amazing weekend that we spent together. Everything went so much better, and finally am starting to do something useful this time, hellyeah am starting to learn how to drive, well safely normally and by my own self, lol.

The 3 days sleepover and the girls were totally made my weekend, they're like my soulmates.

Some crazy and unormal pictures is coming right out....

And my gen' farewell party i mean the promnight is on it's way, 2 weeks to go, and a week to the announcement day! I need a great big luck

and maybe am going to do some fitting for my dress on 31th well i don't know.

Today is my first day of my driving course, everything went better than i expected, i guess. I need this, ohmy. am the only one who doesn't know how to drive a damn car in this house.

And bytheway, i've been reading a really great bookcalled Shiver, aaaand i just love it! recommended.

Blog, socmed and things on the tab, once again i miss the old days. Throwing back to everything that happened in the past and starting my thought on how things could've been. I have so much time to think, maybe too friggin' much, then i got my self tired for thinking and expecting things that won't happen.

am in the middle of uploading things on the internet and well, the internet sucks. So bye. sorry for the random thoughts.

another 20 Random Questions

Seriously got bored. So here it is

1. Do you wear makeup, if you do what kind - nope

2. Do you have a youtube account? If you do what kind of videos do you make? - Yep, and am thinking about some kind of a video diary.

3. Do you have a facebook/ twitter? - Both of them

4. Who is your favorite singer/actor? - Taylor Swift, Bruno Mars, Eric Clapton, Robert Downey

5. Do you have a ipod, if you do what are your top five songs on it? nope

6. What shirt are you wearing right now, and where is it from? - am wearing grey tshirt, my dad bought me from china.

7. What is your favorite color or colors? - Maroon, Dark Purple, Black

8. Do you live in a 2 story or 1 story house? - okay i don't get this one

9. Do you like to read? - owmygawd, yes!

10. Favorite store? - I don't really have one, but it must be all of the bookstores

11. Do you have pets? what kind? - A dog, Labrador.

12. How popular are you? - I can't judge my own self

13. What color hair do you have? - absolutely black and proud of it.

14. DO you like your life? - Well, most of the time, yes.

15. Last text message says? Don't forget to bring the book.

16. Do you get makeup from drugstores, if you wear it? nope.

17. Favorite sport? am no good at sports.

18. What kind pants are you wearing right now? shortpants, maybe, i don't know what is it

18. What your best friends name? well, it's too subjective.

19. Do you love like or hate life? loooove

20. Did you have fun answering these questions? kinda:)

Against All Odds lyrics

This song was sang by Phil Collins, Westlife, and lately the glee cast made a cover from this song, and am in love with blaine's voice and of course of this song.

How can I just let you walk away, 

just let you leave without a trace.

When I stand here taking every breath with you

You're the only one who really knew me at all 

How can you just walk away from me, 

when all I can do is watch you leave.

Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain, 

and even shared the tears.

You're the only one who really knew me at all

So, take a look at me now,

now there's just an empty space.

And there's nothing left here to remind me,

just the memory of your face.

Take a look at me now

now there's just an empty space.

And you coming back to me,

is against the odds and that's what i've got to face.

I wish i could just make you turn around,

turn around and see me cry.

Theres so much i need to say to you 

so many reasons why

youre the only one who really knew at all

So, take a look at me now,

now there's just an empty space.

And there's nothing left here to remind me,

just the memory of your face.

Take a look at me now, 

cause there's just an empty space. 

But to wait for you, 

well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now, 

cause I'll still be standing here. 

And you coming back to me is against all odds.

That's the chance I've got to take.

Take a look at me now

Sarcasm

Ini cuma beberapa pernyataan sarkasme yang lagi ada di otak gue akhir-akhir ini...

Kenapa gue lebih mendominasi tulisan di blog ini menggunakan bahasa inggris? 

Gue ngga bertujuan untuk gaya-gayaan, tujuan dasar gue pake bahasa inggris itu biar semua orang bisa baca dan ngerti arti dari postingan blog ini. Dan siapa tau ada yang berguna atau menarik.

Sorry for the grammar, anyway.

Dan saya mulai bosan sama beberapa orang di dunia maya, di social media lebih tepatnya yang ngeluh tentang apa isi dari socmed tersebut. Contohnya twitter, ada beberapa orang yang ngeluh tentang isi tweet dari orang lain, tentang sengga pedulinya mereka ttg tweet-tweet itu atau ttg the 'don't be such a dramaqueen on twitter'. Bitch pls, dari awal kita bikin twitter, kita juga udah dramatis kali, karena kenapa kita mau bikin twitter dan umbar ttg apa yang kita lagi lakuin kalo gamau disebut dramatis? Gue belajar ini dari Sonia Eryka.

Maksudnya apa tujuan-nya dari lo bikin suatu account socmed kalo akhirnya disitu lo cuma bikin orang kesel dengan status atau tweet lo? Sama aja lo ngga ada bedanya sama yang lo sindir kan? :)

Dan, long life for all the bitches, for being such a, grh sepertinya tidak ada kata-kata yang pantas menggambarkan mereka. Saya tau kalian rentan dan mudah sakit, apa lagi sakit kepala kan ya? Kasihan sekali, mau mati ya kelihatannya?:(

Terus kalian nangis ya? apakah saya harus tau kalian nangis, smp di tweet segala? di pasang lagi di insta, waaah gaul sekali.

Dan gue gak tahan sama cewe-cewe fanbase:( maaf yaa, gue ga sebut siapa loh tapi gitudeh. Menurut gue fan yang baik adalah fan yang bisa ngakuin kejelekkan idolanya, karna taruhan demi apapun gaada yang sempurna biarpun dia idola, kalo memang salah ya dibilang salah dong, kan mereka juga manusia, jangan malah yang bilang kesalahannya dibilang salah. Jangan karena idola malah kita gak bisa jadi pribadi yang baik, agresif itu nggak baik buat cewe. Orang bisa lari. Gue cewe, asli cewe tapi ngga segitunya juga kok. 

Biarpun gue gabilang kalo sengaja ngata-ngatain idola orang itu bener, tau diri juga lah ya masing-masing. 

Tapi mau sebaik apapun hal yang dilakuin, well, they will judge me anyway. Society can never be pleased. 

Am so sorry for this full of mean words post. Am just saying, but if the shoe fit then lace it up.

Cinta Brontosaurus [review]

Made by my all time favorite writer and also a comedian, Raditya Dika.

A one hundred percent Indonesian. 

Film ini salah satu film yang gue lihat sepertinya udah ditunggu-tunggu dari awal Raditya Dika ngumumin adanya film ini. Orang-orang ikutan countdown ke hari premierenya ini film, guepun nggak sabar dengan gimana sih sebenernya jadinya film ini.

Gue pernah baca bukunya, novel Cinta Brontosaurus waktu jamannya covernya masih merah dengan gambar seekor Brontosaurus dengan kepala Raditya Dika.

Waktu itu gue udah kenal sama Raditya Dika [RD] lewat 'Babi Ngesot' dan 'Kambing Jantan' yang gue udah baca duluan waktu itu, sekitar 3 atau 4 tahun yang lalu.

Ceritanya sih gue sama kakak gue cinta pada buku bacaan pertama, nggak berbeda sama orang lainnya yang jatuh hati sama buku RD mereka yang pertama kali mereka baca. Jadi setiap gue liat buku yang dibuat sama Radit pasti gue penasaran untuk beli, dan gue bener-bener suka yang Kambing Jantan. Itu  gaul, bang! *happytears*

Gue mulai penasaran deh sama segala macam hal yang menyangkutkan Raditya Dika, gue nyari dia di twitter, bacain blognya, gitu-gitudeh. Pengen banget bisa ketemu Raditya Dika tapi selalu ada halangan pas bisa ketemu dia. Dan gue mulai tertarik juga nulis blog, malah pengen kalo blog gue bisa banyak orang yang baca nantinya. Raditya Dika, Benakribo, Shitlicious itu inspirasi gue dlm ngeblog!

Balik lagi ke Cinta Brontosaurus, gue baru nonton itu 2 hari yang lalu soalnya kalo hari awal-awalnya ini film keluar rusuh sekali manusia-manusianya. Bahkan gue sampe terpesona gitu sama antusiasme orang-orang ttg film Raditya Dika, karna apa?

Karna gue ngikutin Raditya Dika dari awal-awal yang jaman-nya temen-temen gue belom tau siapa dia, Radika juga gak banyak yang tau. 

Dan setiap gue nyodorin bukunya dia pasti temen gua bakalan bilang, "ah gua ga terlalu suka buku-buku yang kaya gini, garing." setelah itu mereka bakal ketawa-ketawa dan skrg jauh lebih apdet ttg Raditya Dika daripada gua. True Story.

Menurut gue Cinta Brontosaurus itu film yang berhasil, film Indonesia manasih yang temanya komedi tapi ga melenceng ke hal aneh-aneh kaya gini? Hampir semua film komedi Indonesia dari judul aja udah aneh kan. Dan biasanya endingnya jadi sedihlah, anehlah, gajelaslaaah. Kalo ini engga, ini berhasil buat satu studio ngakak bareng-bareng tanpa unsur aneh apapun, if you know what i mean, dan lebih kerennya lagi, ini bermakna. Dan berguna dalam hal menyadarkan orang alay:')) Walaupun samar-samar tapi ini juga gue bisa nangkep beberapa unsur sindiran yang santai, lucu tapi juga tetep aja dapet tujuannya. 

Ini ngebuktiin kok kalau orang Indonesia juga bisa menghasilkan sesuatu yang lucu, menarik, bermakna dan tanpa melenceng dari kata 'lucu' dan 'komedi' itu sendiri. Raditya Dika menurut gue punya segala hal yang bisa dideskripsikan sebagai lucu yang sebenernya, dalam gayanya dia sendiri malahan. 

Am a big fan of you bang! 

Ini lebih kaya film komedi cinta dengan gaya Raditya Dika yang tetep ada moralnya juga, ada pelajarannya, daaaan ini nggak kaya film cinta yang maaf gue bilang, picisan.

Bagian yang paling gue suka itu saat-saat Edgar cerita ttg Yasmin yang hamil dan kalimat Edgar yang terakhir, "....emang sayang butuh alasan, bang?" 

Intinya, film-film kaya gini yang harusnya diperbanyak di Indonesia. Yang harusnya diwujudkan sih lebih tepatnya. Mungkin malah diluar sana anak muda Indonesia punya lebih ide lebih lagi daripada Raditya Dika tapi udah keburu males duluan karna satu dan beberapa hal. 

Kalo gua jadi produser ya gue sekali-sekali bereksperimen, maksudnya gue nyoba untuk bikin film bukan dengan tujuan uang tapi kualitas dan apa yang dibutuhkan sebenernya, pasti seru.

The Right One

I don't know what is it until the idea to write this post came up, but about the right one, am only 15(almost) and i think it's normal to have someone to picturing who is the right one i want to be mine.
Well i don't know who is it, but Keenan Pearce is one in a million, maybe.

Well, i want someone who can accept my family, especially my parents. For whatsoever it is, they are what they are and i want you to accept all of them, like, they are my priorities.
And am looking for someone who is able to accept me in every condition, i mean like i have nothing and he has nothing, and we can start all over from the nothing itself.
The most important thing is he is believe in God, give everything of he had to God, i need that kind of person to walk with me in every situation and give my faith back, to make me believe.

And all of the physically thing, well let's just take it as a bonus.

And the other important thing is, i need someone who believe my weirdnesses, and be weird-awkward with me.
I have learned about, put your heart in God's hands, and He will give it to the one who deserve it♥

A true love

Just got back from shopping, the promnight is right a month away from now.

Wish me luck to get the perfect dress, pftpft.

Am using train this day, twice. I just love to go in a public places and watching the whole things. I saw and learned so many things from public places. Just like i did today, i saw a girl with her husband and her two sons, am don't mean to judge but her husband and her sons look like they're poor or something but this girl looks so dazzling, with her wig, and all of his well maybe she tought it was cool but it isn't clothes. Once again am not judging but, she looks like she doesn't care about her family. She took a seat in the train just for her and her husband take their sons and took another seats for him and his sons. And am just thinking to my self, is she really their mom, is it just me or she is so goddamn selfish? She doesn't even look like give any shits about them. I feel so sorry about them and especially their father aka the girl's husband. He looked so tired and well, exhausted and unhappy. He hold his sons and i can see love in his eyes. He doesn't care about his wife who's looks like upset of their existences, i mean the husband and his sons. 

When the train started to move, one of her son, the little one looks like tired and he wanted to be near his mom, and he move and then sat on the floor between the girl's legs. And she's just looking through her phone and do nothing about it. The little boy started to get sleepy until he fell asleep. And once again, his mom doesn't even care, even if it's just take the little boy and hold him while he is sleeping. The father saw his little boy and looked into his wife eyes, and he just get up from his seat and take his little boy, and hold him while he is sleeping, and kissed his forehead.

I never see a pure love like this one before, i mean, when you got nothing at all and the one who supposed to help you isn't there, but still love is love. Kids is a God's miracle like no matter what, you have to take care of them.

The point is,public-places is one of a fun places to visit:))

2nd of May

It's been a friggin'-lazy-May
am absolutely doing nothing, well but still, am enjoying this very priceless moment.
Just heard a rumour about a test that will be held on June, something like a vocational test. Well a hard-work is a must and it's kinda the only way to me to starting my way to be a doctor. Am crossing my fingers now.

I just did something horrible, break my own rules, that is just so stupid i know. And i feel so guilty right now.
Can't stop asking a shitty questions like, 'what should i do now?''what's next?' to my self.

And the sims 3 isn't seems so fun anymore. I get bored easily kay, don't judge.
Can i just go back to well about a week or a couple weeks ago? I had so much fun.
And i have no regrets.

Am starting the random thoughts about how my mother gave something like a genetic ability to read people's behaviour, their face and sometimes their mind if i already knew them for a long time, then i understand who they really are. Basically, am judging people without them knowing about it. I'm all like acting like a normal person, just sitting there quietly and it maybe looks like am in my daydreaming, actually i'm doing a research about people who's around me that time, i watch their move and how they talk to give their friend a response. Most of the time, i know people based on how to they answering a question from someone. It's like give me everything i wanna know.

There's kind of a people who is mean-rude-and nice at the same time, something like a two-face maybe. You can see it on how they answering a question or giving a response from a two different persons. One's the unknown and one's the famous, no doubt about their act.
I saw a tweet on twitter, when a people is nice to you but rude to the waiter then he is not nice. And believe me, it is so true. Just remember that one day there is a chance they will do the same as they did to the waiter or the unknown one.
And i just can't fit to their life style, even if they're nice.
I love people who can read the situations and act as they have to.Those people is all the world needed.

Aaaaand, i thought maybe i can do something useful like writing something. At least, i will never get bored with this thing called writing.
Lately am so inspired and love to read a book that written like a diary, well it's unusual for me, i don't like it for the first time until i read this two lovely books called Emily the Strange : Stranger and Stranger by uhm, am not really sure but there's a word written, 'rager', and it's in english so i need time to read this book. And the second is Paris: Aline by Prisca Primasari, Bahasa and a tiny pinch of French. They both have a unique pics on them, i just love to see them.
Based on how am inspired by this thing, i want to write something, too. Well let us just call it a trashy thing until is done. And i don't even thinking about the ending cause i don't even know how to start. Well, hv a blessed May!♥