Day 9: The last time I cried

I know guys, i know
My whole life is a mess. This 10 blog challenge is an example. it should be only for 10 days but now we are here, 4th of February. I am so tired of all of those high-school drama. What the hell is wrong with you people, don't you get tired or something?

So for the (not so) 9th day: When was the last time you cried?
Honestly, i can't exactly remember it but maybe it was a few days ago. And no, it's not really because I'm broken-hearted or something, i was just mad, no, i was so mad, and i couldn't express it straight to the person, and well, it's just a big ugh and i was so disappointed, disappointed by a someone you thought would never did is one of the worst feelings in the world.
I didn't mean to cry, but i can't help it and i didn't expect even realize it. I was just so mad, I'm feeling like i want to throw a brick into someone face and yelling at that face and have so much win but i know it is illegal and i don't want a new problem. So my damn tears is falling without any permission, well damn you.

And I'm not saying that I'm clearly don't have any fault. i did something bad and now I regret it with all of my heart. And those were a long time ago, i realized that what i did was so bad and i don't want to do it anymore so i've been trying for like this past few months. I am so sorry, like i said before, i regret it and i know that it was bad. You have your rights, you can do whatever you want to do, even if it means to hate me. Well and 'hate' is a mean and a strong word, isn't it?

Maybe I'm just tired. Tired for being involved to drama that i didn't expect to take a part into them. I just want to live my life happily and get a good grades, is that too much to ask for?
Well, maybe all of these thing is just a thing that 'made' me. Someday i will look back into these kind of time and be grateful.
But being grateful for now seems to be the hardest thing to do.
I'm trying to not to care, i don't need this kind of negativity in my life.

Thank you for anyone who has took a part. Whatever it is. It will build my character, whoever i would be later in the future, it will be all because of you guys.

and, yea i don't know high-school could be this messed up. They said high school was the best time of all and i can't see it, maybe not yet.
And whatever happens in high-school, it builds you. So it doesn't really matter what the problem is but this is about how you take it and how you deal with it, it will show you how and who you are. Don't take it too personally, it will kill you.
Take the good thing, learn from it, do not get your self carried away with those people, throw away the negativity, look up for a really good friends, for seriously, once a preacher in my church said "show me your friends and i can show you your future. A good friend brings you good, and vice versa" , so go get a good friends.
We're all have started to grow up. Now we're old enough to understand yet we are not mature enough to do it. So use your time to be kind to other people, you don't know what they have been through.

In my whole life I'm living my life carefully because i believe this phrase,
Do not ever break someone's trust. And you, do not ever make someone disappointed, even worse don't you ever make someone cry because of you. You do not.
Karma is a deathly biatch, don't you know that?