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You may call a girl selfish, call it what you want.
But i found it myself that 'to make a move', 'to speak for yourself', and to 'tell people how you feel' is really hard.
And unfortunately, we knew exactly what we want, who we want, or how we feel but we just too scared to show them all.
I don't know if it is just me or something but no, i cannot and i don't think that i will start a conversation first. And you know why? Its just simply because feeling unwanted doesn't feel great, people. It doesn't feel great at all.
You may kill me for being insecure, shy or something and i wouldn't mention it if you don't do it first.

And I might be dying wanting to talk to you and would do everything just to hear your voice but still I'm not gonna text you or call you first, I'm feeling like I'm annoying and you don't want to talk to me, yet I'm so friggin miss you and want to see you.

And I'm scared that the fact i fall too easily, once i get attached, i do it whole-heartedly and it would be so hard to let go and it would be so easy to people for break my heart. So, i keep myself on the safe-track, I'm trying to conceal it, like all the time. Act like I'm okay, well i might be okay but I'm not fine at all.

So, all that I'm wishing for is, you guys, people who recently taking part in my life, please do not get tired of me, even tho sometimes I'm tired of my own self.

And maybe you can't see it from myself, you may not think that i give a damn for you but in fact, i do, i really do care about you, you may not think that I'm dying to talk to you, but let me tell you, i always do. And it breaks me to know that you don't know how i really feel, it is hard for me to show it.

I just want you to know that you are always loved, and they said, the greatest thing of it all is to see and to hope your most precious one is happy, with or without you.